At eighteen, I still have not decided on my favorite food. My favorite type of drink is a mystery. For colors, I remain confused on whether I prefer navy blue or sky blue. I cannot make these decisions, yet I am expected to decide on my future. How is that fair?

As I apply to colleges in my senior year of high school, many applications request for the major I plan on taking on during my freshman year. I stare at that box blankly, scrolling past each major with little enthusiasm. Since I was about six years old, I’ve changed my mind on my future career about a billion times.

First, there was the peanut free bakery I wanted to open, so that kids like me could eat cookies without fear of contamination. Then, I wanted to be a firewoman because I just thought I would look cool. After that, I thought perhaps I could design clothes when I was knee-deep in Project Runway episodes. I watched people pursue their dreams, and I was entirely enthralled by their energy, their spirit.

And here I am now, realizing that I have no idea what my future holds. This is a reality many seniors face as they fill out application after application, wondering if this is the major they will stick with for all four years, or if their desired career path turns out bogus when in practice. While some people may stay true to their dream as it becomes a reality, this does not have to be the case for everyone.

Interests change. I could no longer ever imagine myself as a baker or a firewoman or a designer. I’ve grown up and changed as a person, and so have my dreams. I’ve transformed from a multitasking child into a focused, musical young adult who enjoys writing and reading. These are my strengths, but more importantly, these are my passions.

Being undecided means that my options are my own, my future has endless possibilities. Yes, it may instigate some anxiety as I try to develop an idea of a major, but I still have a long future ahead of me to figure it out. This journey that I have ahead of me, on finding myself and my path in life, is the most exciting event I can look forward to in a murky, confusing future.